December 24/2016

This is the night before Christmas all the little kids around the world are excited to go to bed tonight. In hopes that Satna will have come by morning. It is such a fun time of year. For all the kids Big or small. But 21 years ago it lost the meaning for me. I go through the motions every year and try to be into the whole Christmas ” thing” but the truth is my heart ❤️ just dosent feel the same. I guess by now I can say with ease that it probably never will be the same for me. That somehow has become ok with me. I would never take away the excitement from my grandkids or even my grown kids who do love Christmas. But once one of your children leaves this earth Christmas is different. 

I got some beautiful gifts today from some very special people in my life.  My very good friend Brenda brought Jamie and I a wonderful gift bag full of all homemade goodies, from Carmel popcorn twists to home made noodles and  carrot pickles. All of this she made with her own hand and from her own garden. Thanks Brenda. You spoiled us. I also got my very favourite popcorn cake made by Cindy and brought to us from Virginia. Thanks two both of you for also spoiling  us. We sure ate good tonight and had yummy deserts. One more thing. Friend of Mac’s who didn’t even know me at all sent a beautiful flower arrangement for me. How thoughtful when she dosent know me.  I sure do feel the love.  

Tonight Jamie and I went to my sisters with her and her family for a Christmas coffee/tea drink and had some good cheer. Thanks to to all of you for inviting us. 

Jamie and I are relaxing at home tonight watching a movie and eating our new homemade  snacks. I spent the day at home relaxing because I am going to try to go to Mac’s tomorrow for Christmas dinner. As long as I am feeling good in the morning. Let’s hope I am 

I am trying hard to get going but WOW is it ever hard. I am very stiff like someone has a VERY tight tensor bandage across my chest and they keep pulling it tighter and tighter until I can hardly move. I am doing all the exercises that the physiotherapist gave me but they don’t seem to be getting me anywhere. I don’t want to give up because I think I could be worse without it. I feel a little cooped up but don’t really feel like going out anywhere. The holly jolly Christmas stuff really gets to me. I know that sounds bad but I can’t help it. I am sure by next week Jamie will get me going he can’t sit this long without doing something. Lol lol  I am also a little nervous going out in public. I think people will stare. But really so what they can stare. I had no choice if I wanted to live. 

My Christmas wish is that all my family is healthy and happy with no illnesses or diseases. That they are all happy and content in their lives. I wish this for all my friends too. Merry Christmas  Eve to everyone tonight 🎄🎅🏻. Merry Christmas to my BJ and my Mom in heaven too. Tomorrow is my Mom’s birthday she was a Christmas present baby. 

Beth 😇