October is always a tough month for me. It is BJ’s birthday month and he would have been “46” this year. How can that be ? I only know him at “15”. Each year less and less mention of his birthday, even though it was one of the biggest days of my life. I became … Continue reading October 29/2026. Unless you have been there you will never get it. And that’s ok ❤️

It’s been a while. So much going on in my world. Some good some not so great. I mostly want to talk about BJ right now. It’s has been “30”years since he died. I can’t believe it 🤬 I can barely get the words out. I have such a broken heart right now as I … Continue reading Living with the hand were dealt April 20/2026

Tonight is a really tough post. I have been putting off writing for a while now. I guess putting my head in the clouds is the best way to say it. I found a lump under my left arm back in November and I have not done anything about it. I have had every excuse … Continue reading February 6/2025 I Hate The Word Cancer

Only 17 more days and I will turn “65” I am not scared to turn “65” as only a few years ago I thought I would never make this milestone at all. Over the last couple of years I have seen many people die from this awful disease I have. Breast CANCER. Many famous people … Continue reading September 1/2024 I am Not Scared to Turn “65”

The absolute worst day of the year for me is April 20th. Since 1996 I have had 28 of these miserable days. I can tell you I have dread every single one of them. You see it was 28 years ago April 20/1996 our beautiful first born son BJ died in an awful accident. Although … Continue reading April 19/2024 Another Year

The days are getting nicer and now with the time change daylight is later. I love spring the most of all seasons. it is anticipation of beautiful summer to come. The first smells of spring, of going out without coats and boots. The sun seems so much brighter, I love it. 🌞 This year I … Continue reading March 15/2024 A Strong Woman

I can’t believe we are already in February/2024. I made it through 2023 but barely. That was the longest hardest year for me. I found out in March of 2023 that I had thyroid cancer, it hit me hard. I had my thyroid removed in Tijuana Mexico and decided to just move on again. I … Continue reading February 6/2024. New Start

I guess I start with I am sorry. I didn’t blog through my chemo treatment at all this time. Partly because I was so scared, because I knew what I was in for. Chemo did not disappoint either. It so sucks. I went through 4 rounds so I actually did one more that my first … Continue reading December 2/2023. Chemo Sucks 😎

I started this blog seven years ago to write about my cancer journey. I have not had a lot to say about cancer for a few years. Which was great for me. But I am again in the bowels of cancer. I am very sad 😢 about it and I have needed to take some … Continue reading September 1/2023 Cancer Sucks / Chemo Sucks More

I started my blog almost seven years ago. Mostly to let my friends and family in on my journey of cancer. Oh boy what a journey. I first had kidney cancer, then breast cancer, then thyroid cancer. What a rollercoaster of a trip and emotions. I have some awful news again, and it breaks my … Continue reading June 22 / 2023 Cancer Sucks Again