December 29/2016

Starting to move around a little better every day.  We took the tree down yesterday and I even did some vacuuming.  Way more fun putting the tree up ( just sayin). I was even able to do the wash and some ironing. These arms will be back to normal in no time. 

I am looking very forward to getting these drains ( I call them my air bags) removed. My dr said I could get them out when the volume was down to 30 cc’s. No luck yet. I really don’t like them. There is just no way of hiding them. I have to tuck them into the top of my pants on each side. I look very wide. I feel even wider. I have tried all kinds of camouflage ideas but so far nothing works. They just have to be there.  So I have until Tuesday my doctor said they come out then for sure.  Yippie 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻

I have also started to get feeling back in my arms and under my arms. I thought it was from the blocking they did to help with pain. But when I still had no feeling after a week I got worried. I spoke with my nurse navigator ( the nurse that gets assigned to every breast cancer person) she said it is from all the tissue and muscle they cut through. Nothing to do with the blocking.  ( what a relief just!!! from all they CUT through). She also told me to keep up with the exercises because I could get more permanent numbness, and or frozen shoulder ( something you get if u don’t use your arms enough…. Who knew)  so that is the reason for vacuuming and ironing. I think it all can’t hurt, I am going to keep up the movement and get the house work done in the mean time. A win, win for me 👍🏻

Thinking about venturing out tomorrow. I can’t believe how scared I am to do that. ( what a big baby) I just feel so different. Really not looking forward to getting out in public.  But if I don’t get out soon Jamie is going to loose his mind cooped up in this house. Today he helped his brother move that took some pressure off me.  I know I have to get back to the living but I just don’t feel ready. Tomorrow is another day. I hope that will be the day. We will see. 

I read this today. Thought I would share.                                                                                                   

I’ve Learned A Lot This Year                                                                                                                           I learned that things don’t always turn out the way you planned                                                                      Or the way you think they should …..and                                                                                                             I’ve learned that there are things that go wrong that don’t always get fixed                              Or get put back together the way they were before.                                                                            I’ve learned that some broken things stay broken …..and                                                                            I’ve learned that you can get through bad times …..and                                                                                                                                             Keep looking for better ones,as long as you have                                                                                     People Who Love You  ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

I’ve learned that I have lots of people who love me,  lucky me. Or I don’t think I would have made it through this last year.  My granddaughter ( Ava)  came to visit me on Sunday with Mac of course. Lol. On Monday afternoon I found a note she left me it said ” I love my Mama”  ( that’s me)   Love Ava. How awesome that was to find that note the next day. It totally made my day.  If that dosent give me reason to get these arms moving nothing will. 

Beth 😇