January 8/2017 

Finally I have some relief from four days of terriable pain. Not sure if the drugs are finally kicking in or I am just getting better. But whichever it is I am glad for the reprieve. 

I had a pretty good day today.  Jamie made plans to take me and the grandkids for mani/ pedi’s. I had decided last night I just wasn’t  going to go but I would send him on to take all the girls.  But as soon as I opened my eyes in bed this morning Jamie said ok let’s get ready were going for mani/ pedi’s today remember?  I pulled myself out of my pillow cocoon I make up for myself every night to help keep my arms up high. I got up and thought WOW I am not hurting so bad today. I got ready as Jamie kept asking how you feeling today, how you feeling today. He so wanted to go. And wanted me to feel good enough to go too. 

So 10:00 am off we went to meet the kids and all get mani/pedi’s. It is a family thing for us as we all go. Guys and all. I love how each of the girls has such different taste. Hannah is Into a character called Harley-Quinn and her nails were done in those colours ( red and blue) Chloee is our glitzy girl her nails were all sparkles (pink) and Ava she is all girly girl she does different colours with sparkles on her toes then GOLD on her fingers. Poor Mac getting all those to teenagers. Lol lol Austin got a new hockey stick and sat patiently waiting for everyone to be done. Jolee got her nails done blue for diabetis, ( for Ava) Mac had really rough heel he said they were sticking to his sheets, he was so ticklish it was funny and when we left his heels were hurting I hope they didn’t take to much off. Jamie he is my spa slut as I call him because he loves the pedi’s almost more than me. I got my toes and my fingers pink for breast cancer. Seemed pretty appropriate to me. 

I did get somethings new. I got a few sports bra’s given to me. I am really tired of wearing tank tops under everything. After wearing a bra for 40 plus years I just feel like I need something under my tops. But it kind of feels like starting all over with training bras. Sports bras don’t have a lot to them.  I guess I am really kind of starting over. When I do finally decided what I want to do weather reconstruction ( can’t really see that happening at this time ) or just as Mac calls them Bolt Ons. I will be able to decide this time,the size, the shape, and even the firmness. I know something for sure they will be perky right up to where there were 40 plus years ago

Finally I really am thankful for “Jamie” who was not going to let me stay at home today pain or no pain. He knew these last few days were tough on me.  He helped nurse me. He gave me back rubs, made me tea, even did the meals for us…He just held me close as I cried more times than I wanted to because I was hurting so bad. Today he met me at my car door to hold my hand to lead me into the mall so I wouldn’t fall and hurt anything else. Then held me close as we walked back out too.  I know how lucky I am to have him by my side through this journey. But I wanted everyone to know I would not make it through this journey without him. Love you babe for all you do for me..❤️❌⭕️😘

Beth 😇