June 12/2017

Tomorrow will be one week since I came home from Mexico. Still feeling really good and I think better everyday. Yesterday I did a 5K walk for my Grandaughter Ava for JDRF ( juvenile diabetes research foundation). If that dosent say I am feeling much better well than nothing can. I did come home and have a nap after, but I did do the walk. 👍🏻

“BUT” today was another day back at the cross. I need to do radiation now. My Mexico doctors said I should, so I am going to. “BUT” of course as usual I was so dreading going because I have had nothing but bad experiences there. Today did not disappoint….or maybe it did as per usual. I had a new doctor a radiologist oncologist, who was nothing but a misserable b$&ch. right from the first moment she came into the room where my sister Cathy and I were sitting. The first words out of her mouth were I am going to explaine how this radiation works, and you are not to talk or ask questions until I say so……do you understand? Cathy and I looked at each other like Wow. 

She started to talk and draw pictures, it was a lot to take in and a lot of bad stuff. Bad news. All the bad things about getting radiation, no sprinkle of any good news. Cathy saw that I was getting stressed and started to ask a question when Dr K ( I will call her) put her hand up palm facing Cathy and she said no talking.  We looked at each other and, just kind of shook our heads. Then she said some more about how this radiation can cause damage to my left lung, causing a scare on it. I started to question that and she held her finger up to her lips and said shhhhhhh. No kidding she told both of us grown women to be quiet. When she was done talking she said questions now? We asked a few because some of this is scary, and I don’t want to take myself down again. Then she told us that it would talk 2 or 3 weeks to get in. When we questioned that she said, and so that you know, when they call to give you times don’t ask to change times or question because then I put you at the bottom of the list and I have no idea how long it will take to get you in. Do you understand ? I felt like I was in grade 2. Now we were scared to ask any more questions because she was blackmailing us to keep quiet. Really rough doctors visit. I came home from Mexico so pumped up on life, and one hour at the cross and I was in tears again. 

Then we were sent for a CT scan, so they can figure out where to do the radiation. They put little needles of tattoo dye on my stomach and ribs so they will know where to line me up. That all went very smoothly, nice people working in there. Four to be exact, they told me one girl was intern,she just seemed to stand back and watch. She didn’t touch me or ask any questions. I did tell them in radiation that I could start treatment any time because I am at home and not working. All done and off we go a bit of shopping then I headed home. I got home about 2pm. ( my dr appointment was at 8:00am in the morning) As I came in the door, with keys and purse in hand the phone was ringing, it was the cross ( I was so hoping they could get me in earlier for treatment) …… Guess what? the scan was no good I have to go back tomorrow and re-do it. I was like really ? I don’t live close? What is wrong with it? Guess who they blamed? Yup the intern. Really? Really? She never even talked. “BUT” whatever, off I go tomorrow for another CT scan. 

I am trying to keep positive and upbeat “BUT” after a day like that. I tell you it can make it rough. “BUT” she is only one doctor and I can get through this radiation and move on, hopefully never having to deal with Dr K again. I have to have 20 treatments, 5 days a week for 4 weeks. Lots of driving to the cross, lots of gas, lots of long days I am sure. I will head into this with the best intentions, one more things to get through to be healthy again. 

I am doing really good with my strict diet. No sugar, no salt, no flour, no vinegar, no tomatoes , no carbonated drinks, no pork, and no tomatoes..seems like a lot when I am writing it ” BUT” I am really having no problems. I actually surprised myself with that. I am also taking a lot of supplements, all natural. I even have to give myself a shot of B17 three times a week and I am having no trouble doing that either. Did I tell everyone I am a rock star……Jamie calls me that all the time. Ever time I have a hurdle he says you got this your a rock star. Mac says we got this Mom no problem. So with all there help, I know I can do this for myself and for them. ❤️

Today’s saying: We all feel a little damaged sometimes…..But remember a broken crayon can draw just as colourfully as a whole crayon. 🎉

Beth 😇