March 13/2018

I can not believe it has been six months already. I am planning my trip back down to San Diego/Tijuana again. My plans have changed three times in the last week, first of all Jamie was coming with me, but of course as per our life he has finally found a job and yes you guessed it, he starts when we were supposed to go to San Diego/Tijuana. So he was off the plate. Then I asked my sisters who were both trying to figure things out, but it was just not working for them. Of course one of them would have figured a way if I could not find anyone. Another two off the plate.  But I have the best friend ever, my friend Angie is going to come with me.  Her boss gave her the two weeks off. And on top of it she helped me book the flights today and got that crazy schedule all figured out. There is no direct flight from Edmonton so I need to go through Calgary or Vancouver. Angie lives in Calgary so that kills two birds with one stone.  Now my plate is full and Angie and I leave to San Diego/ Tijuana March 31,2018. 👍🏻

That happens to be Easter weekend, but I need to head down there then because by the end of the month all my supplements will run out. I came home with six months worth. I am cutting it pretty close, as most of my supply will be done April 1st. So off I go with my extra suitcase just for my supplements. I truly believe that all those supplements are what is keeping me alive and healthy. I kind of like being that way. Lol lol you know the top side of the dirt. 😜

Again of course as I get close to going down to SanDiego/Tijuana  my emotions get the better of me. For some reason I find myself ready to cry at the drop of a hat. I feel scared to face my cancer again, which going down there really makes me do. I think of how very sick I was the first time I headed down there. Going to Tijuana was for sure the best thing I could have done for myself, BUT in going there again I re-do all my tests again and I want so bad for the restults to be great, I have had nightmares that the results are bad this time. I just don’t know how I will face that for me or for my family who have all supported me through this Cancer journey. It is easy to say don’t worry and I really do work hard at not worrying. I just really need good results again. So fingers crossed and any prayers anybody feels like sending I will take. Off I go to Mexico, Tijuana to be exact. 

We had the boys come out yesterday and spend a few hours with us. Really they were here to help Jamie do some work on his truck. But Jamie and I got them to help with a few other chores while they were out. There are a few things I can’t quite do anymore, like lifting out Christmas decorations up and down from the loft. I think I can but when I try my arms are just not strong enough. Jamie just can’t do it alone so we waited and waited for just the right time, to catch the boys when they didn’t expect it. Lol. It worked and we got a pile of stuff done, lol lol. Thanks Mac and Gordon ❤️❤️ job well done. 

Jamie and I went to Mac’s house last night to get a visit in with 4 of our grandkids, what a way to make your day great. Even if you are having a bad day a few minutes with them and all our troubles are gone. But Ava our almost 8 year old Grandaughter ( as she reminds us ) told us some girl at school was picking on her and had hit her, I tell you as her Mama and Papa it breaks our hearts to hear someone is picking on her. We gave her tips, as to what to do. First talk to the girl then to her teacher, and hopefully she will be in a better mood tomorrow we told her. Jamie and I talked about it last night driving home, again this morning, I watched the clock all day waiting for after school to hear from her and how her day went. Finally at 4pm she called. Happy go lucky had a great day, all was great in her world. When I asked how things went with the friend at school today she said oh that Mama, we made up things are all good we are friends again. So a lesson for this Mama, don’t worry so much kids are resilient and  make up as fast as they break up.  So happy all ended well for Miss Ava 👧🏽.

We also spent an afternoon with the boys this weekend, Zack is 14 now and I had to laugh at the things Gordon was telling us about him. Having trouble getting him to do things, no enthusiasm, showing little interest LAZY .  Lol lol I mean I actually had to laugh out loud welcome to the teenage years Dad there are 6 more to go. Pay back is a bi$&h. Riley on the other hand is so into hockey he eats sleeps and drinks hockey. But dosent eat or drink any food Gordon makes. Again pay back is a bi$&h.  The happy years 😜

My life is full and my blessings are many. I know it and I appreciate it. My plate is full and I am grateful. Life is good when it is good ❤️

Today’s saying : Not all storms come to disrupt your life, some come to clear a path…                               

Beth 😇