January 16/2017

I told Jamie today that I was going to go to physiotherapy, I just feel it is taking to long to get my arms working. I really am trying but I was not  prepared for how long it would take to get my arms back to normal. I am getting a little impatient 🙃. But Jamie was with me when my surgeon said that I need to wait 6 week, he was not in favour of my idea. Even though I feel like I am strong enough. I think I will make some calls tomorrow on the subject. 

Also starting tomorrow I am going to call every 2 days to see if I am moving up on that so- called waiting list everyone has. My surgeon said that chemo is to get rid of any micro-orgisms that might be lingering after surgery. That is why that don’t wait to long to start treatment. But oh no I get a 2 month wait. Well I am going to try to move that up at least a couple weeks. They will get so sick of me calling they will get me in. Lol lol I will keep you posted  on how that works for me. 

I have had a busy couple days getting Jamie ready for work. Everything takes me twice as long, with these arms. I can’t lift anything heavy or move any big suitcases. Jamie has been on the phone steady trying to get everything organized. So I do my part organizing the packing….. Usually…. This time he is doing almost everything by himself. I am the Check list person, he is probably looking forward to going to work for a rest. Lol lol 

I have decided to use up some of my old wool and make some shawls, like the beautiful one I had given to me. For my sisters and nieces. I already have 3 done in one week. It is something I can do sitting. I also think that it is giving my arms more exercise which is good. I guess I will keep making them until either I am sick of it. Or nobody else wants one. 

I had a rough night last night. Just couldn’t sleep, I  was very restless, and did a little bit to much yesterday so I was hurting.  I was up most of the night wandering the house and making shalls.Then this happened,  I have this beautiful cuckoo clock that I got from BJ on my very first Mother’s Day. He was only 7 months, so I know Jamie had something to do with picking it out. But Jamie always told me BJ did pick this very one. It is very precious to me because it was from BJ.  Anyway it was acting really funny last night it usually cuckoo’s every 15 minutes. But last night it would go every 5 minutes. Then after about 20 minutes it would stop. I had to go re-set it over and over. And then it just kept cuckooing…I think BJ was up with me last night just keeping me company. He seems to show up on the nights I really need him. Last night was one. Maybe too because Jamie is going to work. Lucky me to have BJ show up like that.  Just thought I would share my BJ moment. I miss him every day 😇❤️

Beth 😇