February 2/2017 

The squeaky wheel gets the grease.  Today I got a call from the Cross Cancer and I have my appointment moved up to next Wednesday. I can hardly believe it. I even told the lady who called me.  I said I never thought I would get in earlier. She said we try !!!  I told her I didnt think anyone would ever cancel an appointment. She said sometime appointments are cancelled because people have more surgeries or are to sick to come in. Ok so I don’t want anymore surgeries, I also hope I am never to sick to make my appointments. Kind of scary information. 🤓😂🙃 sorry I asked.  Should have just said great thanks see you next Wednesday.  But no I have to ask to many questions.  

I was so excited I called my Jamie, and Mac, and my sisters then my Dad. Then it hit me…….I am getting all excited to go to the Cross to start that poison in my body “Chemo” What am I so excited about ?   I guess it is because I know that the sooner I get started the sooner it is over. But don’t get me wrong I am not excited to start getting chemo put into my body. I think it is knowing that I could have some lingering cancer someone just waiting to pop out somewhere else in me. That is what makes me want to get going . I feel deep in my heart I could be regretting wanting to get started. Then I think reality sets in and says get going girl. I hope that I might just be the exception and fly right through chemo with no problems ……. Fingers crossed, prayers said. 

I had a very nice night out last night. My friend Barb picked me up and chauffeured me all over the Fort. We took her daughter to dance lessons then we did a little shopping,  had a very nice dinner out with another friend Suzi. Then she brought me home. I went right to bed and had the best sleep I have had in days.  I just might need to get out more. Thanks  Barb,and Suzi. A much needed break. 😊

I don’t know if I have talked much about this before but I have a condition ( I think that is what it is. Lol lol)  I have Restless Legs Syndrome. If anyone knows what this is. It is a major pain in the A$$. It mostly happens at night right after you fall asleep and can keep me up for hours a night. I also do get it some days, and in the last few years it has worked its way up to my arms sometimes too. It is kind of hard to explain to anyone who has never had it.  But it is like a twitch inside your legs or arms, some nights it can drive me almost crazy. Anyway another friend works at a place where they sell this new invention that is to help people who suffer from RLS ( restless legs syndrome). I got one yesterday. It it a pad about 2×3 and it goes under your covers you put your calves on it and turn it on. Last night  was the first time in a week I didn’t have RLS. I might just have found the cure. I will keep you all posted. 

So now when Jamie and I go to bed we are going to be quite the pair. He has a c-pap machine. Most people know what that is now. It helps for people who snore. Jamie used to snore  so bad the blinds went up and down giggle giggle. He won’t think that is to funny. Then me with this mat in bed. Getting old sucks. Lucky we love each other, so that these weird things in our bed don’t hamper us.  Lol lol. We are a sight I am sure though.  

My other complaint is that my poor ribs are still brused and sore. I really can’t believe how long it is taking for that part of me to recover. It is 6 full weeks going on 7 now. My numbness in my armpits is still there too. But I am getting used to that. I have slept on my side a couple of nights, it feels so good to just be able to flip around a little bit. But I will be on my back again with my new RLS machine, I can handle that if the restless legs go away. 

A new little saying I liked……… Love yourself back to Life ❤️

Beth 😇