February 10/2017 

First thing this morning I had to drop off my drug concoction at the drug store. I pulled up and parked, the car in front of me had “BJK 1959”. BJ’s initials and my birth year. He is always with me on my toughest days. More bad news 

Another day at the Cross starting  to feel familiar, not sure I like that. Cathy ( my sister) came with me today..we got there a little early on purpose, we parked underground today so we came in through the basement thought we would check out all the parking options. Very expensive parking $16.00 dollars for two days because we got free parking on Wednesday. 

We came in right by the “wig” department. So we decided to go in and check some out. Really a weird experience. I tried on all kinds, long ones, short ones, curly ones, straight ones, and then blond, brunette, black, and grey…. So I didn’t like the long, the grey, or the curly..  But who knew I would like the brunette better than the blond. Think I will go brunette when I get my hair back, after 57 years as a blond I might just try something new.  We’ll see.  Wigs are free there too, great idea. We also met the volunteers with the coffee wagon at the wig shop. They are all so nice. 

We also decided that I need to get some kind of head gear because I am not sure I will like the wigs. So off to the gift store and I got a couple hats. The recomend a special one for night because your head gets cold with the hair all gone. Then a pretty blue one. I will see how I like wearing these hats. Never really been my thing guess I will find out if it works for me. Then two special bras and a tank top $ 100.00 dollars. This cancer is going to be expensive. 

Then off we go to meet my oncologist again. Just to review my tests from the last two days. We go back to the same station they told us to go to when we were there on Wednesday. We wait at the station “E” then a nurse comes by and says you have to go to station ” D” the nurse for station “E ” is not in today. We go to station “D” then that nurse takes us back to station  “E ”  they are right beside each other. She asks for the green paper. Cathy and I look at each other dumbfounded. What green paper?  The one at check in. But nope we didn’t check in and get our green paper. So back to the front desk for our green paper. Then nope we go to a different station,now we go to station “B” but that stations has no one there either a note says go to station “C” so we go to station”C” and the nurse walks us right back to station “B”. Right next to station “C” .You can’t make this stuff up. It really is crazy. 

We finally see the oncologist more crappy bad news.  I now have stage 3 grade 3 triple negative breast cancer. All this means is that it was worse than they first thought. Harder to treat and can spread more quickly. To bad it has taken so long to get this treatment going. Even the doctor agrees with me. But nothing we can do now, treatment starts at 10:30 Tuesday February 14th 2017, Valentines Day.  Pretty sure a day I will never forget. 

So I plan to have a relaxing weekend, see all my grandkids and spend a little time with them. Get caught up on all my reading of books and pamphlets from the cross and try to mentally and physically get myself ready for Tuesday. This is going to be a long road but hopefully at the end I am cancer free. So let’s get this show on the road. 

Beth 😇