March 10/2017 

Four days since my second round of chemo. I seem to be doing even better than last time. I am taking my nauseous meds but I really don’t feel sick.  Which is really weird because I got more chemo drugs this time. Or at least I think I did. Hard to believe that I can’t remember from time to time. But really what does it matter I just want all these cancer bugs gone from my body. 

I felt so good this morning  I decided to get pretty, I got all dressed up put makeup on and a really nice hat and a pretty pink scarf tied around the hat. I wore a pink sweater and I really felt kind of like I looked ok, concidering I have no hair and black bags under my eyes. Cancer does suck the life out of you. I sometimes don’t know who is looking back at me in the mirror. But I saw a small glimps of me or the old me today.  She’ll be back sooner or later. I hope 😊

I went today to the cross to get my staples out from my port last Friday. I got all checked in with my red card and green paper. But when I got to the station where they take them out the nurse says oh it is only 7 days we need to wait for 8. I said Friday to Friday is 8 days and I came all the way from Gibbons in a storm I am not leaving without these staples getting out today. Then the nurse said who told you to come back today? I told her the doctors who put them in.  That’s true !!!!!! Finally a nurse could tell I was a little worked up and she took me back she said to check and see how well I was healing. We both knew I was getting them out today. Yup she took them out. 

Then I was off to West Edmobton Mall I had ordered some new glasses last week. I have been wearing black ones but they looked so harsh with my white white features now. I didn’t realize how much hair gave you color until I had none. Lol lol I got some new light frames they look much better or so I think. Cathy liked them too she has been my side kick and came along with me. We did a little shopping and then said good-bye. I had to go to the bathroom though so off to the food court to the bathroom. Something really weird happened.  I was sitting in the bathroom and I look down in the next stall is a woman with shoes about size “15” they are velcrove do up’s. I was so grossed out I just rushed out of there. I think it was a man stuck in the woman’s bathroom waiting for all the women to leave so he could get out. Totally creeped me out.  Gross gross gross. 

Tonight I had another little upset or I guess it was to be expected BUT!!! I was not expecting it. After I did so good today putting on make-up and trying to look a little bit better. When I washed it off tonight I lost a big bunch of eyelashes. At least I had my eyes to pretty up. But looks like I won’t be wearing much mascara anymore. It made me kind of sad. My doctors said I would not loose my eyelashes or eyebrows. Yea right !!!  Besides the little bit of fuzz I have left of hair is coming out in blotches now. I have bald patches all over my head and the little hairs get into everything. I found a good solution for catching it all I am using a clothes roller for getting fuzz off of clothes, you know the sticky ones. I just roll it on my head and it catches the little hairs works great. I guess you do what you gotta do. 

Jamie and Mac have both been face timing me from work. But tonight I finally got brave enough to show them my bald head. They both handled it pretty good. I guess what choice do they have? Do any of us have ? I am now bald. My granddaughter Hannah face timed me the other night and I had a hat on she could t even talk she just keep looking at me. I told her when I saw her in person I would show her my head with no hair. She was a little scared I could tell. This is the part that is hard for me I don’t want to scare them. But it is the reality of me now.  We can’t hide it. 

I wanted to thank my nieces and sisters for coming over on Tuesday night after my second round of chemo. Cathy and Lindsay, Lynne and Danielle. I hope you all know how much I appreciate you all supporting me on these tough days. Everyone taking time out of their working schedules and fitting time in with me at night after there long work days. Even Desiree she never misses texting me to wish me love on theses days. I feel so loved from all my family. You all will never know how much it means to me, and how lucky I know I am to have you all as my family. It helps me through the tough times and scary times. Even the night before my Dad always calls to wish me luck for chemo. I know how hard this is on him too. As all parents it is so hard to see your child sick. I love you all To The Moon And Back 🌛

Lastly my little saying : ” Cancer does not have a face, until it’s yours or someone you love”

Beth😇