April 5/2017

Well Jamie and I are getting used to living together again. I have turned down the furnace a couple degrees, so he can cope with the heat in here.  Because I was so cold the other night I kept turning up the heat. Finally I realized he had the bedroom window open, so we decided to compromise. I turned the heat down and put a sweater on and he promised to keep the window shut.  Such small problems. But right now these are my real world problems. 

I am really enjoying Jamie being home, he is helping with all kinds of stuff. Today he even got groceries and did a Costco run too. He really is seeing that I haven’t the strength to do everything, and he has really been helping out. I know he dosent like seeing me so sick and wishes he could do more. But really there is nothing he can do. Just being home with me is a blessing right now. 😇😘

Yesterday was my third round of chemo. And we had the best nurse ever. She totally re-newed our faith in the Cross. Her name was Paige and she just couldn’t do enough for us. She introduced herself to me and then Jamie and told us we could ask her any questions we wanted. It was very good for Jamie. This was his first time coming with me to chemo and he had lots of questions. The needles are big about the size around of a loonie and then about 8 inches long, pretty scatty to see.  She told him first about the 4 red devil needles I got, then the white witch. Jamie could not believe how big the needles were and since he hates needles he was a little nervous, but she was so calm and explained how the port worked and how it was so much better for me and for them. Then when all the needles were done Jamie thought we could go ” but” I still had a whole bag of intervenious to go through. Jamie said no wonder you feel sick after all those chemicals they put into you. He just could not believe it. We also talk to her about my Dr Dick she said they get lots of complaints about him. So glad to hear we were not the only ones. And finally I got a copy of all my blood work so far. It is important for me to keep track too. My white blood counts were good, my red blood counts were good, and so were my platlets. The only problem she had was my kidney function so then we told her I only had one kidney. She said oh, well then in that case all good. We proceeded to tell her her about my year from hell, she told Jamie how lucky he was that I was so strong. Even though I don’t always feel so strong. She was a great nurse and talked so much to us. When we left she shook both our hands and said good luck….”You Got This “she then told us to take ourselves out for lunch to McDonalds. 

So we went to McDonalds on our way home. We came home after and I was so tired that chemo really whipes me out, I slept for two hours. Then when I woke up the nausea set in I was sick all evening, even though I went to bed early I was up sick twice through the night. This is the first time the chemo make me sick so fast. I am hoping it dosent stick around. But I do have that terriable taste of burnt tires in my mouth again making everything taste awful. But I am keeping track it should only last 5 days, fingers crossed. 

Mac brought all 4 kids over her last weekend. Although they have seen me with my hat on I didn’t have it on. I don’t wear my hat all day in the house. I was quite worried about how they would all react….kids are so awesome not one of them even made a comment. I was just Mama. They were very gentle when they hugged me I could tell Mac had told them I was sick and be careful around me, they were just fine. I could not be more proud. Gordon also came by with his two boys and they didn’t seem to care either. I have the best grandkids in the world….lucky me ❤️

So I am now half way through my chemo. The next three chemo treatments are different than the first three. We did ask our nurse Paige about what to expect next time, she told me not to worry about it, they will explaine it all to me next time. I hope that means it is going to be better, but probably not. But like Paige said, I am going to get through these three weeks before I worry about the next nine weeks. 

Tonight’s saying : You have no idea how far out of my comfort zone my entire life is right now.  😢😬😀

Beth😇