June 26/2017

Finally I am all caught up on my yard work and my house and even the garage. I feel better just getting everything in order again. It only took me three weeks. But remember I had a really rough year last summer so some of my jobs were behind by 2 years. Anyway, now let summer begin. 

I went to Costco in St Albert on Saturday, I got hit by that miserable storm just as I turned into Costco. I actually sat in my car for 15 minutes while I waited for the rain to stop. After I got my groceries I stopped in to get gas. As I was filling my little red convertable Mercedies a lady looked around the pumps and started to talk to me. She said that little car must be so fun to drive in the summer? I can see it is a convertable?  I said yes it is really fun to drive. Then she said I can tell you are going through some kind of cancer? I said yes breast cancer…..then we talked while filling our cars for a good 10 minutes. She told me her father had died of lung cancer and that her best friends husband had just died of colin cancer. She asked me how the cross was? I said “”why?” She said that her experiences with both these men was very bad at the Cross,and that she nor her friend would ever donate or help anyody who was raising money for the Cross again. All this talking while getting gas. As we finished up she told me, I don’t really believe in a God but I do believe in a higher power and prayer so I will say a prayer for you, I thought it was so nice. Kind of cool while getting gas. A new friend, even if only for that 10 minutes. 

I was surprised to hear her say that, she was so unhappy with the Cross Although I have not had the best treatment and I have heard many stories from people not happy with the Cross. It is the only place for us in Northern Alberta to go for Cancer treatment, we have no other choices. It really is sad. People need to write letters and start making that place accountable. We need to stop letting them get away with this terriable treatment. Cathy and are going to be writing letters. Once my treatment starts and we know Dr K can’t stop it.  Today we started visiting with 2 ladies as we were waiting to take the course on radiation. Both ladies said they had some bad treatment too. After the course a lady came up to me and said she was sitting behind us as we talked about Dr K being so misserable ( a bitch.) she said she also had her and she treated this lady the same as us. Not letting her talk and closing her eyes while she tried to talk to her. We told her we were going to write letters she said she liked that idea. Not sure if she will. But I will add her story to mine that’s for sure.

I got to spend time with 4 of my grand kids on Saturday night for supper and then again on Sunday afternoon for a visit. On Saturday we went out for supper so I wore my hat. But when they came to my place on Sunday I didn’t have my hat on. I am not wearing it at home at all anymore. Anyway Ava was the first she asked if she could feel my hair, then they all took a turn to feel my head. Lol lol Ava was the only one who told me it was kind of black and white. Ha ha ha. I told you all I am coming back as a dark brunette, with a few white hairs mixed in for good measure. Still a little short to go out without my hat but I hope in the next month I will be hat free. On a day like today it is way way to hot for a hat. 

So today was the radiation course and then a practice for the real radiation tomorrow. I also had a few x-rays. So tomorrow is the BIG day I finally start my radiation and I will be one step closer to being free of all this terrible treatments, that make you sicker than when you started. I can honestly say I am not looking forward to this next 4 weeks. At the course today they told us not to take any supplements, not to talk to anyone else about our treatments, as to not compare with anyone, where as in Mexico they encouraged us to talk to each other to compare our stories and that way we could help each other. I actually sent a e-mail to my Dr in Mexico, I asked him if it was ok to take my supplements while doing Radiation. He answered me in an hour and told me Do Not go off of the stuff I brought back from Mexico it has nothing to do with radiation. So I am trusting him and going with that. 

One last story. I had to take my car in today for servicing. To Koch Ford. My sister picked me up and then took me to the Cross and brought me back to my car after. She just dropped me off to pick up my car, when I went inside the service guy told me my tags on my license plates had expired and I better get a new one soon. So I go check it out. Yup!!! it expired in January..Yes January, I was so nervous driving home and guess what? I see three different police cars even two RCMP in Gibbons. I did get my tags and all is good now. That just shows you how out of touch I have been with so many things. I am just behind on so much that has never happened to me before. I got the girls at the insurance place to hook me up to my e-mail to be a reminder now hopefully that helps with my brain fog. 

Today’s sayin: “Courage” Dosent always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says ” I’ll try again tomorrow. 👍🏻

Beth 😇