July 20/2017

Well I have 17 radiation done. Yippie only three more to go and I am out of here. I have started to get some redness now, but it is not hurting me. Just looks like a light sunburn. I saw my mean doctor yesterday again, she is not mean anymore. (Not sure how or why her bedside manner got better but I am sure am glad it did) she told me I looked really good and that with such little skin irration she is sure I won’t get blisters now. So that was more good new. Oh yea she loved my shoes, more on that later. 

I have always know I am a little superstitious, but I think I am more than I realized. I got to my radiation yesterday and everyday I get the same dressing room, but somebody was in my room, so I waited for it to get empty. I thought to myself I don’t need anything changing things up now and me have more problems. I mean I am having trouble with hiding my shoes, more about that later. Then I came out of my treatment and somebody was again in my changing room. I mean really twice in one day I don’t need stress like that, again I waited. But today all was back to normal, got my dressing room back and my day went very smooth. I can thank my Dad for the superstitions because I know he has a lot too. Thanks “Dad” ❤️

Yesterday was a bit of a crazy day, now about the shoes……..so I am trying to get a lot of things done before I go spend the rest of my summer with Jamie. With my OCD and superstitions some days are well I guess I can say hectic. Yesterday was one of those days. I left home and I was running a little late, another one of my things. I am always on time and probably a little early for everything. But I got to talking to my siding guy and before I knew it I was leaving at 2:00 pm I usually leave at about 20 to 2. I get to the hospital at 1/4 to 2, there might have been a little speeding involved. I go to step out of the car and I look down and I have my house slippers on. Oh yea a fuzzy pair of house slippers. I quickly put my feet back in the car and I realize I have no option but to go to radiation in my slippers, I have no other shoes with me and I can’t go in bear feet. Off I go !!!  I get to radiation and I lay on the couch (cold table) now the technicians working have gotten to know me they have seen me for the last 17 days of treatment. I decide I will bring up the slippers before they do. I ask the girl do you like my shoes ? She says yes are to staying at the hospital ? I am like “NO” I drove all the way from my home in Gibbons to here in my house slippers, I said I had no choice to come in for treatment but to wear them . She got a good laugh,  I was totally embarrassed 😂. I think the chemo/ radiation brain is true. I seem to have lost it. But my story isn’t over yet….. I had to get a few groceries yesterday too so I actually went to Safeway at Meadowlark in my fuzzy house slippers. Yup I sure did. That is not my regular Safeway so I though nobody will know me there so I should be fine. I came right home after, sure hope I don’t repeat that performance. 😬

I need to say a Thank you to my friend John for helping me by fixing my front door and even painting it for me. He did a terrific job and it now is the crowning glory “Orange” glory to my house with all the new siding. I love it. Thanks again John 

Also I want to say thanks to my friends Julie and Lyla for inviting me to go out for supper with them tonight. I have spent a lot of time alone this year and I night out was just what I needed. Was so nice to catch up. Thanks again girls ❤️

A few more thank you’s….My little car arrived safe and sound in Fort St John today, it will be waiting for me next week when I arrive. Thanks Allan for getting it there for me, I was so worried about being there with no car. No more worries about that 👍🏻

Thank you to my niece Danielle for getting me a flight to Fort St John next week. I couldn’t get one for that price anywhere. But I am a little slow on the computer and that has a lot to do with it. Now to just finish up these last few treatments and I will be on my way. Thanks again Danielle. 

Little by little my life is starting to fall back into place, I feel a little more like my old self everyday and I can see glimpses of my old life slowly seeping back in. It feels so good I have had one really long year of crap !!  I look so forward to just normal everyday life, no more doctors, no more hospitals, no more treatments. I do believe the best is yet to come 😘

Today’s saying : The best feeling in the world is finally knowing you took a step in the right direction. A step towards the future where everything that you never thought was possible is possible…..🙏🏼

Beth 😇