Jamie and I are having a wonderful holiday in Mexico. He is finally resting more, it took him 5 days before he finally got up later than 4am. Yikes !!! It has been so nice to just get away after a very long winter. “Alone”as Jamie was working away in BC.

I have made many observations here as I sit out on my well shaded deck in my bikini (not) but I do have a bathing suit on. He he he…I see so many women here young ones in their 20ish I guess, and middle aged like me late 50ies ( he he he again) then older women in their 70ies to 80ies…we are all shapes and sizes. I love the women who are not really the so called perfect size still strutting there bathing suits around. With last winter’s chocolate cover donuts showing just a little. I guess because we all know that we will probably never see these people again so let it all hang out. I love it ❤️

Before I left to come I went to the bathing suit company and bought myself a couple bathing suits for women with mastectomies. They have a harder bra area and it is really stiff. First time I have bought something like this. I have been wearing them but………they do not stay puffed out no matter what the material. And sometimes I look down and they are concave. Not a really great look, and so much for trying to hide the fact I am wearing a bathing suit with no boobs in it. So I resorted to stuffing the bra area with Kleenex. At least it makes them staff full. Lucky I don’t like swimming because I don’t think they would hold up to good in water. Lol lol 👙

But I have decided that many women don’t appreciate their boobs!! Believe me I sure didn’t. They are the crowning glory to the sundress with spaghetti straps, the biking with no straps, and the evening dress that has a very low cut V neck. None of which I can wear anymore. I seem to be like an old man catching a peek always checking out boobs now. To see if they are perky or floppy or just right. Also to big to small or just right. I feel like it is so evident that I have none “BUT” I can’t seem to find anyone else who seems to have no boobs. Just me… 🧐

Which brings me to the next question about boobs!!! I am very sure that at this time in my life I do not want to go through the process to have new boobs made for me. Is it the right decision? Well I don’t know? But for now it is for me. I have although decided to save on Kleenex and go get fit for prosthetic ( sounds really weird) boobs. So that I can wear the bathing suit, the spaghetti strap dress, and the V neck dress. If I so desire too.

Now that I have decided this. I still love to wear no bra !! I will continue to do so when I don’t feel I “need” boobs. Which is most of the time . Lol lol. The freedom is amazing girls. I sure don’t miss bras. But some days I miss boobs!!

I do however have an appointment to have the ugly lumps under each armpit removed. The cross nurses and doctors call them dogs ears. As though these ugly scars aren’t enough. I already feel ugly when I see my naked body in front of the mirror. Someone came up with the name dogs ears. So so bad. Anyway I finally decided to get that taken care of. I hope before summer. But I have travelled this medical system before. So maybe by next summer. My ugly dogs ears are very uncomfortable in my bathing suits and tank tops as they rub until they are raw. Hopefully I will get in and out soon. Fingers crossed 🤞

As we finish up our final few days here in paradise. I thank God for my life!!! boobs or not. Kidney or not. I know I am lucky to be alive and I don’t want to waste a day of the time I have left here on earth. I am so lucky God gave me my Jamie, we can just be here together and life is so great and so easy. We are so lucky to have the time together, in such a beautiful place. It is the little things that count now, not the boobs😎😎

Today’s saying: The life in front of you is far more important than the life you left behind. ❤️

Beth 😇