Only 17 more days and I will turn “65” I am not scared to turn “65” as only a few years ago I thought I would never make this milestone at all. Over the last couple of years I have seen many people die from this awful disease I have. Breast CANCER. Many famous people as well Susanne Summers, Olivia Newton John, Shannon Doherty to name a few. Every time I see someone die from this disease I can’t help but wonder when will my time be up ? Hard not to feel this way. 😢😢

I went to my clinic ( I call it my ) in Mexico in May I got a check up and the news was not so good again. My markers said I have active cancer. But I really should not be surprised as stage 4 metastasized really means it is never all gone now. So we just live with it and wait for it to rear its ugly head again. I really had a rough time with this. I decided to not do my blog until I was in a better place. Lots of nights alone crying asking why me ? I guess why not me ? It is a pretty hard pill to swallow. To know your on a short timeline. My doctor in Mexico Dr Castillo told me I will have two good years before something shows up again. I really feel like I have been tough through all these cancers and kept going strong always showing a brave face. BUT This news really hit me hard and I hit a rough patch feeling sorry for myself which is never good . I try to never bring my family down and being strong for everyone else just got to be to much. Poor Jamie had to help me through all the rough days, as always he was my strong hero. I am so blessed with him. I know it honey, my love always. So again we fight on. 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻

Wow turning “65” I can get the old age pension. Yikes !!!!!! But I know it is a privilege not everyone gets. Including my poor Mom who never lived long enough to get it. And worked so hard her whole life. I look forward to my first cheque in October. I will have a glass of wine and celebrate this day. Lol lol 🎺🎉

Jamie and I moved our trailer out to Seba Beach this summer, all his idea and what a great idea. We have been out here ( where we are as I write this blog today sitting by the fire ) every weekend all summer. Except one so far. It is our little piece of heaven. So peaceful a little retreat from life. It has been a real healing time for me. I have had time to wrap myself around this cruel cruel disease, and get a grip on dealing with the fact my days are numbered. We have had the boys ( Mac & Gordon) come out and help us build a gazebo and a little shed. Then Mac brought his family another weekend, we barbecued and the kids went swimming. Danielle came that same weekend, before baby Archer was here, she had Archer only a week later. Then Cathy and Des came for Jamie’s birthday. And finally last weekend we had Mac’s girls Hannah and Ava for a whole 4 days. We had so much fun. Ice cream everyday, a few drives to Wabamun lake and then Entwhistle, we played cards and told stories. They even like horror movies. We watched a few horror movies. Poor Jamie not his thing but I sure got to enjoy it . It was so so nice. They are growing up so fast it could be the last time they even want to come. MEMORIES to last a lifetime that’s for sure.

Jamie and I continue to keep busy with our Condo life as well. Him being the maintenance man has become a job. Far more stuff to do all the time. We took on some pretty big jobs this summer around there. We painted all the outside doors 13 to be exact. Then a set of stairs at the back parking lot. Who knew stairs were such a pain in the butt. Lol lol besides all that just general keeping the place neat and tidy inside and out. Oh yea then we came to the lake a couple weekends ago and we had a water line break. We had to go back home for the day to get that fixed lucky the lake is less than an hour away. Condo life we love it ❤️❤️

So on we go making memories for us and for our family to hang onto long after we are all gone. Life is good. But it goes by so fast. Let it slow down a little. It was just April, beginning of spring now we’re into September and fall. 🤬 Time really does fly 🧚🏻‍♂️

Todays sayings : I want to inspire people I want someone to look back at my life and say “ Because of you I didn’t give up “

Number #2 : I’m proud of myself because I have survived the days I thought I couldn’t.

Number #3 : life is so ironic…It takes sadness to know happiness. Noise to appreciate silence. And absence to value presence.

Beth 😇