December 20/2016 After a long night with not much sleep. Even after I got a sleeping pill that did not work. I was poked and prodded all night. And In between that my alarm on my intervinous kept going off. Long night. I really missed my TV. Oh yea and my Jamie ❤️😘 My doctor … Continue reading First day home 

December 19/2016 I sure didn't think I would be able to write tonight. But I have had a pretty good evening  not needing much pain meds, so my mind is clear. Sort of  We had a pretty early start, Jamie and I were up at 4:00am. But I got to sleep for 3 hours. Nobody … Continue reading First day of the new me 

December 18/2016 This is the last night before my surgery tomorrow. The before I had breast cancer and then after I had my mastectomy's. I know this is going to change me in ways I don't think even I have come to understand or realize yet. I am feeling pretty anxious tonight. Not scared but … Continue reading The last night 

December 17/2016 I have had a lot of experience with grief. I know that there are five stages of grief ... Denial,Anger,Bargaining,Depression, and Acceptance. These stages follow no rules. You don't just go through the stages and yippie you are done grief ( if only it was that easy). You can go in and out … Continue reading Another day under the belt 

December 16/2016 I would like to say patiently waiting. But I don't feel very patient anymore. I just want to get this over so I can start the healing process. Although I am scared as hell to have this surgery.  Crazy how can you be both ? During the day I am all strong, keeping … Continue reading Waiting

Jamie and I went yesterday to my pre-op,  more of the same stuff. We had to be there for 9 am. We were there a little early. One of the good things about breaking my pelvis was that my doctor gave me a pass to park in handicap. It has been so nice to have … Continue reading Pre-Op

December 13/2016 I had to go for another ultrasound today. No results until I see my dr. I have no idea when that will be. I guess on day of surgery. I was told I had a hiatus hernia way back in May. But with the new CT 2 weeks ago. They discovered I don't … Continue reading One Day at a time 

December 11/2016 After such a wonderful day yesterday I found myself to be leaky today. I have had a cry every time I turned a corner. Not because anything happened. It is just the season for me. I try hard not to let it happen but I am carrying around a heavy burden this year.  … Continue reading Leaky day 

December 10/2016 Started out our morning bright and early. Jamie and I do something very special for our grandkids every year ( and a few other very special children in out lives).  We have a tradition that my Mom did. One  that she got from a neighbour of our family and very good friend of … Continue reading Christmas is for children

December 8/2016  Just when I thought things were going to get started.  I get a call from my surgeons office. My surgery is changed to December 19th.  I know it is only a few days. But it is a few days in my life.  With this cancer running around in my body. Hopefully not moving … Continue reading Baaaahhhh Hum Bug.