January 14/2017 

I finally got my call from the Cross Cancer. (Even the name of that place is scary). I am booked to see the Oncologist on February 15 th. So much for getting me in really fast. That is two months after surgery. I told the nurse I wanted to get in earlier, of course she said I will go on the cancellation list.  I have been on every cancellation list in Edmonton for doctor appointment, specialists or to get tests. Funny thing I never got in early for anything ever. Not once. Kind of frustrating. But really nothing I can do about it. I just hope that nothing starts to grow anywhere else. 😡

I also got my call to go for a biopsy on the lump in my thyroid. This one is even better, April 27 th. Sure hope that’s not cancer either. I told that nurse I have had 2 different cancers in 6 months. I really fell I should get in earlier. But no chance they are really booked. More waiting. I think I have been pretty patient. But I am a little frustrated over both these appointments. I want to get started on treatment. Maybe I could have some summer this year. Ok enough whining. 

I went to a friends house last night. She just found out that her niece has breast cancer. She is only 33 years old. It breaks my heart to hear anyone else having to go through this. She has 3 young children, and a husband. I don’t know how I could have done all this with young kids.  I am so tired all the time, I sleep in and have naps most days. I have really concentrated on taking care of myself because I had no one who needed me to take care of them. Even my Jamie has stepped up and help so much around the house and with me. I will keep this girl in my prayers and I hope the system treats her good and all goes well. 

I have had lots of suggestions to help me with my shaving dilemma. I just might try the waxing. Lol. But really I know that in the scheme of things it seems so small. But to me it  was important. Because I want to get back to doing everything as I did before. To normal….what ever normal is, I guess my new normal now. Slowly I am doing more and more. I will really have my butt kicked into first gear after Tuesday as Jamie is going away to work. He has been my extra set of arms for a month now. Helping me to do the little things. Like getting dressed, opening my pill bottles, opening my water bottles, carrying the laundry. Wow and so much more. I am going to miss the best nurse a girl could ask for. 

I am very used to Jamie going away to work he has done so my entire married life. I have always been able to do everything myself I am pretty Independant……usually!  But I have come to rely on him so much lately. I get a little teary every time he gets stuff ready to take. We have been on this journey together and there have been many hard days and lots of tears behind closed doors that only he has seen. And getting used to my new body that he has also helped me with, when I was feeling so nervous about how I looked. He tells me every day I look beautiful and that there is a lot more to me than my breasts. Jamie says he loves me just the way I am and there is no need to do reconstructive surgery, he just can’t see me going through all that surgery again, on that we agree so far. I know how lucky I am to have him. I love him with all my heart ❤️😘

I am sure I will be reaching out a lot to my family and friends the next few weeks. So many of you can expect visits or some late night phone calls.  I am sure I will be lonely the first few days.  I will be crocheting up a storm of dishcloths and afghans. 

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Beth 😇