March 1/2017

One year ago today I had a doctor appointment with a urologist, I thought it was just a routine check up after undergoing some tests for blood in my urine. Little did I know that day would change my life forever and the next year would be a year full of one bad thing after another. 

I found out that day that I had renal cell carcinoma ( kidney cancer). My life was put into a tail spin, my doctor that day gave me no choices he told me what was going to happen and when. I was so glad he took it all into his hands. I was in such shock that I don’t think I could have made a decision that day anyway . I was booked May 4/2016 to have my left kidney removed. That as I learned later was just the start of a really rough year for me. 

I have put 2016 behind me now and glad to do so. I am moving on to 2017, but it to has had a bit of a rough start. Hopefully I am done with surgeries for a little while. Although I will need to have some surgery to fix up the mess that my breast cancer doctor has left me with. All in good time. The cross tells me that I can’t have any surgeries until chemo is done. Something to do with platelets and white blood cells. Lol lol 

So today one year later I am still dealing with cancer. But little did I know it would be a different kind of cancer ( breast cancer)   Today was a little rough I had to shave my head because my hair was falling out by the handfuls. I felt a little sick to my stomach all day worrying about it. Both my sisters came over and I started cutting it by using my clippers. 💇🏼Then they both took turns to finish it off. Yup I am bald. What a weird feeling.  We took pictures, of me cutting it, of the hair all gone, some with me trying on my new hats and scarves and I sent them to my guys and my nieces and each other. Everyone called and texted and messaged me. All three of my guys said I looked beautiful without hair. I knew I loved them all, they are good liars. All the girls said I looked good too. All liars. Lol lol

I can’t lie after all the calls and messages I stood in the mirror and cried my eyes out. Like I ugly cried, I think I had been holding it in for awhile. Felt so good to have a good old cry. I cried not because i am going to  miss my hair. But because this is a new me “AGAIN”and I really liked the old one. After the tears I pulled myself together and I am fine now. Guess I just had to get it out. It really did feel good. 😂😅

Tomorrow will be my first day out in public without hair, ok so that is going to be really weird. I will be wearing my new cute little hat with a flower on the side. I am going to need a little bit more time to figure out the scarves. I tried a few ways to tie them but nothing looked to good. I am sure I will get lots of practice in the weeks and months ahead. So if you see me in the next weeks out and about let me know what you think of the hats/scarves I plan on making a real statement with all of them.    

One thing for sure it is sure going to be easy to get ready in the morning with no hair to do. My sisters both said think of all the money I will save on hair products and hair cuts and colours for the next few months. Yup sure happy about that. Lol lol 😊

I know I am not the first woman to go through this and I for sure won’t be the last. Somehow that dosen’t make it easier for me. It just makes me know that there are a lot of women who truly undestand my feelings, and what I am going through. To all the breast cancer warriors out there who have gone before me, you are all my Hero’s.  I didn’t know, I just didn’t know. 

Today’s little saying : Be Thankful For Today, Because in One Moment, Your Entire life Could Change !! ❤️

Beth 😇