November 5/2017

Getting used to being back home with Jamie at my side again. We spent the whole day last Monday cleaning the trailer and cleaning the truck. And boy oh boy the truck was in bad shape 5 months without doing a clean job and going up and down the right a-way. We spent 6 hours just on that. Lucky we can work together so well. ( Jamie and I ). What am I talking about Jamie was all over the place, doing lots of nothing as I climbed in and out of that tank 100 times……at least. Or so it felt like that. Anybody who has seen Jamie’s monster truck as the grandkids all call it, know that just getting it and out of the truck is a job for me. But we ( I ) gotter done. 🚛

I spent most of last week going to and from doctor appointments and getting tests. I went to Fort Saskatchewan on Wednesday for a x-Ray and ultrasound. I have never been to that place before for any tests. So I called before I left home to find out where it was located, I told the girl on the phone who I was and what I was coming for. She very nicely told me where they were located and how to get there.  Off we went at 9:30 in the morning for my x-Ray and ultrasound. We get there and I check in, the girls tells me oh by the way our x-Ray machine broke yesterday, we hope to have it fixed by 1pm can you wait?  I was like are you kidding it is 9:30 am.  I said I called you 1/2 an hour ago why didn’t you tell me then I could have come later for both. She said oh that was you? I forgot when I was talking to you. ( like can you chew gum and walk girl?)  good thing is my Dad lives in the Fort so Jamie and I took him for lunch then I went back for my x-Ray after lunch. Oh boy 😬

My next appointment on Wednesday was at the “cross cancer” not my favourite place to go. I am seeing one of my three oncologist’s. Yup the one who was very grouch and mean who I really am a little scared of and not happy to have to see again. I have three, why her?  Cathy and Des met us at the cross just to have a coffee and catch up before they leave for a Mexican holiday.( without us)  So Cathy decided to come with me to see our favourite oncologist ( not ). Same thing, give the red card to get the green paper, then down stairs to see the doctor. Now this is about my 50th time I have had appointments at the cross and about 10 visits with this doctor. The nurse tells me to change into the hospital lingerie, I do then off to the little tiny room. First things first, fill out the paperwork that asks you if you are loosing it yet, like if I am severely depressed mark between 1-5, just medium depressed mark between 1-5. Just a tent tiny depressed Mark between 1-5. I tell Cathy every time no way I am answering these because I think they will put me into a straight jacket and haul me away. We both laugh… Then the nurse comes into see us and the first question she asks me is, have you had a mammogram lately??? Cathy and I both look at each other and start to laugh. ( see this is why I don’t answer those questions, I am sure the laughter at this place of all place will surely make them get a straight jacket for me ). I finally look at the nurse and I say have you read my chart? I had a double mastectomy!!! She quickly takes my paperwork and leaves us. Cathy and I both just shake our heads. My Dr comes in and does an exam, all looks good. Except for the severe headaches I am having, not a good thing once you have had cancer ( twice) right way she worries and sends me for a CT of my head. Just checking. I guess it is a good thing. Just another worried for my family. 

Friday we go back to the cross for my CT scan. I got a paper from them on Wednesday telling me no special instructions, eat and drink as per normal.  lucky I was not feeling to well Friday morning and didn’t eat. Because when I got there the nurse said to me when did you eat last? I said why? She said you can’t eat or drink before this test. I said the instructions they gave me said I could ? She said no no no who gave you those instructions? We ” always” tell everyone ” no eating or drinking” I dig out my paper, actually a little nervous just incase I read it wrong. I show her. No special instructions, eat and drink as per normal. She tried to tell me it wasn’t from the cross. But it had the Cross Cancer Institute as a heading on it. She was not happy.  But really all for nothing I didn’t eat or drink because I was not feeling well. I got the CT , I get the results tomorrow. 

Tomorrow is my next doctor appointment I see the Urologist, my kidney cancer Doctor. I hope he will have the results of the CT I got Friday too. Kill two birds with one stone. When I saw my oncologist on Wednesday she already had the results from my x-Ray and ultrasound I just got that morning. My x-Ray was all clear of my chest and lungs. But my ultra sound showed a cyst on my right kidney. I really have no idea what that means. Except that she told me she was pretty sure it was not cancer. So let’s not worry until I see my kidney doctor tomorrow. I am just keeping it real for everyone. And letting you go along on this Cancer journey with me. Although poor Mac told me to stop going to the doctors. No news is good news. Fingers crossed it is nothing. 

A thank you to my niece Danielle for inviting me to go along with her and her Mom to choose a wedding dress. It was definatley a high light in my life right now. I can happily say she said “YES” to the dress. I look very forward to Danielle and Ian’s wedding day.💞💍

Todays saying :   ” You have been assigned this mountain to show others it can be moved”. 

Beth 😇