December 11/2017

Well we are back home from paradise!!!! And life just kicked us in the butt. Back to life as we know it.  Oh how I miss paradise and our butler, and the beach and the ocean and the food and the people, and, and, and. Did I say I love Mexico? Because I surely do 🌄

Back home and of course more doctor appointment, we spent all day today running around from one appointment to another. This time Jamie had to go to a couple too. He said he was sick of being poked !!  I was like suck it up buttercup.  Lol lol a couple needles won’t hurt you. Think of our poor little Ave who gets poked multiple times a day with her diabetis. She is a trooper. Definatley made him think …… 🤔

Tonight we went to Mac’s house after all our running around. He and Jolee always have a open door for us. Unlike his “X” who always made us feel so unwelcome. We had a beautiful roast beef supper, and got to spend some quality time with all the kids. Which we both love.❤️. But Jamie he just can’t get enough of those grandkids he would be there every night if I let him. They have there tree up and it looks so festive in the house, all ready for Christmas. Also some pretty excited kids who can’t wait for Santa. The sparkle in there eyes even makes me believe 🌲🎅🏻

I am still feeling really good. I hope and I pray all the time I stay healthy. I had a bit of a hard time in Mexico as the food was a difficult thing for me. The hoxey diet is so strick and just didn’t go great in all the restaurants we had to choose from on our resort. I made the best of it. But for the first time in 7 months I did cheat a little. Then I lost sleep over it as I thought if my cancer comes back “anywhere” I only have myself to blame. Not a really great feeling. I am back following my diet again, and I feel great. I just have that little devil on my shoulder always making me worry 😪   

I have also decided to look into reconstructive surgery, I am not making any decisions right away but I need to know my options. It was difficult in Mexico with much of my summer clothes, and especially with bathing suits. Jamie and Mac were so great and told me not to worry about it all the time, but it was my body and I was very uncomfortable at times. I know they can’t understand that. But this is a decision only I can make. So in the new year I will move forward  with my plans to see a surgeon and whoever else I need to about reconstruction. Wish me luck 🤓

I am the baa hum bug in our family. And with fitting in a holiday to Cancun in before Christmas I am very behind in anything Christmas.  I am the only one without a tree up🌲I am definatley debating if I should even put one up as I am not having anyone over for Christmas. I told you baaaaa hummmm buggggg.  Jamie usually tries to get me motivated. He did put lights up on our railing and on the front of the house, those ones that have a light show on your house.  They look really pretty. I just lost my love for Christmas after “BJ” died and even now 22 Christmas later I still don’t have it back. I am not sure I ever will. I have learned that you need to do what is right for you, and just get throught the holidays as best you can. So that is what I have done for 22 years. One Christmas at a time🌲🌲🌲

We did our family cookie exchange on Saturday, it has grown to 11 people and so we get 11 dozen different cookies.   Now usually that is a great thing, but now that I am on the hoxey diet and can’t eat sugar or flour I am unable to eat “any” of the 11 dozen cookies that I got. And Jamie sure dosent need 11 dozen so I guess I will be giving some away. Desiree hosted and it was such fun. Nice for all the girls in our family to get together. Auntie Lynne also did a cookie craft with all the kids that turned out great. Thanks to everyone for coming it starts the Christmas season for all of us. Thanks to my friend Angie who came all the way from Calgary to spend the weekend with us, she got 11 dozen cookies too. 🍪🍪 Now onto making the sauerkraut pockets another family tradition, which by the way I can’t eat either. Lol lol 😜 We did have a couple of nude ladies on our beach, I told Jamie quick look it’s been a long time since you have seen boobies. I found it very funny😄. Then instead of asking him if I looked good when I got dressed up for dinner, I would say do I look flat? That was funny too. He is my greatest supporter and loves me just the way I am ❤️

We have the kids Christmas concert this week, and Ava’s cheerleading show.  So we will be busy again all week. Not sure when that tree might get up. Did I say I love Mexico ??  Because I sure do. On with Christmas. 

Today’s saying : When the links of life are broken and a child has to part, there is nothing that will ever heal a parents broken heart 💔

Beth😇