Here we are hot and heavy into the Christmas season, and it doesn’t feel like Christmas at all. Where is all the joy and happiness all the feelings of Love we all have at Christmas ? It has all been masked by the covid-19 pandemic. I am not sure how everyone else feels but I would like to skip December 25/2020 and have our Christmas in January instead. I was hoping to see our covid cases in Alberta go down and maybe just maybe we could have Christmas all together this year. But I watched the news tonight and a week after shutdown in Alberta we had our highest total ever today, at over 1800 cases. I can’t believe it. On a good note today finally the vaccine rolled into Canada and Alberta. Hopefully this will curb our numbers sooner than later.

Last night December 13/2020 was our candle lighting for all parents who have lost a child. We have been doing this ever since BJ died. It is a special night for my family. It is a night to remember BJ. Not like we need to be reminded to remember him as we all think of him daily. But it is a day just for him. Because Christmas is still very hard for me. Every holiday is so hard with BJ gone. Because holidays are such family time and my family is forever broken. He gets lost in the shuffle of the day by everyone else and I understand because life has to go on. But for me I am forever stuck on his last Christmas. I remember what he got I remember what we did I remember the day so well. I can remember all our holidays with him. But not our everyday life with him. Because I guess the holidays are such special times. And I only got to have 16 Christmases with him so each one was special. I loved him everyday of his life, and I will miss him everyday of mine. ❤️

This covid is starting to get really old. For everyone I know. But living in our RV and not being able to go anywhere or see anyone. I had to do something to keep busy. Soooo I have been baking up a Christmas storm. I don’t know who is going to eat all this food. Because if Jamie and I do, they won’t get us out of the door of this trailer after Christmas. I tried all kinds of new stuff. Things I have never made before. I will be giving my family lots. Because this covid body can’t eat much more food. Lol 🤦🏻‍♀️

Living in Edson is much different than living in Terrace. Our little bubble in Terrace, where covid had not hit yet. Covid is alive and well in Alberta. Full time masks here and line-ups to get into places. Hand sanitizer everywhere and on everything. But still our numbers grow. The best part about Alberta even with the covid is the blue skies. So nice to see blue skies everyday. I missed you Alberta so glad to be home. Covid and all.

Jamie and I spent yesterday afternoon bubble wrapping the outside of the trailer from the cold. Of course we waited for the coldest day ever. I almost froze my fingers off. Jamie wanted to cover all the windows but I fought to have 3 left open. Or else it would have felt like I was living in a cave. We have never stayed in our trailer all winter so I guess we will see how it goes. Cave like and all. I still love my tiny home. 🏡

I continue to follow my Mexico Doctors advice on all my supplements. But I am slowly running out. I don’t know when it will ever be safe to travel to Mexico to replenish my supply. Going through the states and then into Tijuana honestly it really scares me. I am hoping maybe in the spring Jamie and I can make a quick trip down. Until then I guess I just keep on keeping on. When I run out I run out. I have tried three times to see if my Doctor would send some supplements to me. But so far the answer is “NO”. Fingers crossed we get this covid under wraps soon 🤞🏻

I wish all my friends and family a Very Merry Christmas 🎄🎅🏻 Let’s all get through this terrible year and wish for a much better year next year. Hopefully getting this vaccine will get things under control. I do believe it is going to take some time. Probably even another year. But the vaccine brings hope. That’s all we can ask for now. H O P E. ❤️

Tonight’s saying : There are moments in my life I will always remember, not because they were important but because you were there ❤️😇

Another : Realize when you look at your Mother you are looking at the purest “LOVE” on earth you’ll ever know. 😘

Beth 😇